Yesterday I guess I was 131.8 sad but today i am 130.2.

I'm sort of, well really upset that I'm not under 130 yet. I really wanted to be and now I just, I can't handle this i have to go on stage tomorrow and I really don't want to embarrass myself! So scared but not really because I feel like I'll mess up. I'm scared because i feel like i'm going to stand on stage and get moo'd at I feel like when i go to Florida I will get judged because  I'm way bigger than everybody else. I've realized i can't exactly be 125 tomorrow the way I would love to be. I wonder if that was even possible? I still plan on trying to lose two pounds tonight. Anyway, this week I'm making my Christmas goal just a little bit harder. A friend and I are trying to lose ten pounds this week instead of just 7. I am aware I'll have to fast this week so I'm going to go ahead and try to pick Monday, Tuesday, and maybe Sunday? I'm not sure lol. I will be 120, I know i set ridiculous goals all the time but this seems a bit more plausible. All week I'm still going to be aiming for the pound a day yet working for a little more than that. If I lose 1 1/2 pounds 6 of the seven days this week i can do it. It sounds really hard too but it's possible. Today I'm going to get my nails done. I'm going to walk there. It's a three mile walk to the salon, and a three mile walk back. That should waste some time right hahah. I want to lose the .2 on the 130 today and get below it. Gosh I'm just rambling on and on and on. Sorry okay, well here's some thinspo!  

<3 Samantha